I was that woman.
I was the woman who tip-toed out of the bedroom in the middle of the night to get on her computer and search for answers that would explain her unhappiness.
I Googled everything I could think of…
“He won’t listen.”
“Why can’t I please him?”
“He criticizes everything I do.”
“He doesn’t love me anymore.”
“Best way to clean wood floors.”
“Stomach problems.”
“Men who groom incessantly.”
“He’s patronizing.”
“When kids can’t please their father.”
“He’s condescending.”
And then, two months after the kids and I moved out, I discovered Narcissism and NPD. I spent every spare moment searching for everything I could read about narcissism.
The following is an excerpt from the e-book, Seeing My Path – In and Out of a Relationship With a Narcissist:
How did I get here?
… At the time, I’d come through a huge phase of personal changes. I had ended my 10 year marriage and set out to learn about myself. I wanted to learn why my marriage had failed. More than that, I wanted to know why I’d put myself aside, in order to be married.
The scribbled thoughts in the notebook were creating a picture of the choices I’d made. Those choices sent me in a direction that led to my marriage.
I had never really given much thought to whether I liked the direction I was heading.
From those notes, I tried to build a framework that incorporated all the theories I’d read about growth and self-improvement. I was looking for something that would explain why I ended up in a relationship with a narcissist.
More importantly, I wanted to make sure that I didn’t end up in another narcissistic relationship.
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Seeing My Path is a series of conversations I had with myself, where I explore how I ended up marrying a narcissist, how I put my life aside to stay married, how things fell apart, how I picked myself up, got out of the marriage and moved on.
The book is based on the particulars of my situation, but it’s an honest assessment of how we all let our circumstances lead us down a path only to wake up one day to realize we are completely lost.
This book is all new content.
This $7 e-book is 200 computer screen-sized pages, in 15 chapters.
I’ve included pictures to help set the stage, and quotes to emphasize my points.
Many chapters include questions to help you pause in the reading and stop to think about your own choices and whether you’ve veered from your path.
It’s a light, positive, optimistic read.
It’s empowering and simple and straightforward and a little bit funny.
I like it. I’m proud of it. I believe it’s truly helpful.
I wrote it for all those women who find themselves desperately looking for answers in the middle of the night.
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In the sidebar, you’ll find a few excerpts from the book. Click on the post title to read more.
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An Excerpt from Seeing My Path.
